Update

This is a very short and random update:
I am doing very well with my baby fever...not weepy about it any more :)

Warm weather is here and I am LOVING it.
The kids play outside most of the day and that gives me a much needed break :)

I enrolled Anakin and Stasia in Oakdale school, they start in the fall.
They are pretty excited about it and so am I :)

Sorsha seems to ok with going potty now and Elle is doing pretty good too :)

That is all for my random update :)

Why I have been hiding...

Ok, now that I am past all the spring birthdays, I can make my confession.
I have the baby blues...it is silly I know, but that doesn't make it any less real.

I first started realizing in it Jan. The hardest part is coming to terms with the fact that Gabe and I are done having kids (unless God surprises us again). I know we are still young but we have 4 kids!! And we are busting at the seams as it is.

I cried ALOT the first few weeks when I realized that I would never again hold one of my babies for the first time, see them take their first step or hear them say their first word. My little Elle just turned 2, she is sooooo much the little toddler. Has it really been 2 years since I first held that precious chubby girl? It doesn't really seem possible...now she is running, climbing, singing, and way too busy for all my snuggles...
So as much as my heart is longing for a soft baby of my own, I will just have to make do with Jada's and Cassie's babies when they get here :)

That is my confession, my blah feeling explained, and why I have been hiding from my blog...some things are just hard to put into words...


*Warning* If you bring this subject up in person, I am very likely to cry...now you can't say I didn't warn you :)

Gabrielle

Today my sweet baby turns 2.
She is such a blessing to our family. I am so glad that God knew we needed her even though we didn't think we were ready.
She is quite possible the sweetest baby ever! She has captured all of our hearts.
Happy Birthday my little Angel!! I love you!!

It's been awhile...

Yes, I have been hiding from my blog. Sometimes things are just hard to put into words. Maybe it's the gloomy weather, maybe it's cabin fever, maybe it is something else all together, but I have been feeling....blah.

All my kids had their yearly exams a few weeks ago.
Anakin is a staggering (hehe) 49" and 48lbs. (5% on both)
Anastasia is close behind with 48" and 46lbs. (20% on both)
Sorsha is tiny at 34" and 26lbs. (5% on both)
And Elle is 32" and 26lbs (20% HT & 45% WT)

All received a perfect bill of health. They are all right on target for their ages and Sorsha and Elle were advanced in several areas. I am a very proud mommy :)

I will have more to post soon :)

Sorsha

My little bug is now 3 yrs old.
Her birthday was yesterday. We had a pincess cake and she loved it!
She is such a girly girl :)
She is my little shadow, she follows me around all day. I am amazed at how much she knows and how she can tell me about it. She is a total handfull but also such a joy to me. I can't wait to see what this year brings with her :)

Happy Birthday my little Sorsha Bug! I love you!!

Stasia

Yesterday my little princess turned 8 years old.
Gabe and I surprised her by taking her to Chuck E Cheese for lunch. She loved it :)
She picked Gatti's for supper for the family and when we got home, we had starwberry cake. My kids were bouncing off the wall...it took an hour to get them to stay in bed :)

This Friday Stasia is having a birthday sleepover with 3 friends and then Jada and I are taking her clothes shopping Staurday. She is so excited about her girly day :)

Happy Birthday Princess...I love you!!

A Calm

January quickly turned into a very stressful time for my family. But God got us through that and now we are having a calm time.
Things finally seem normal. I can't explain how happy it makes me to see my dad acting more like the dad I know and love.
I don't know how long this calm will last but for right now, I am enjoying it.

Jada is pregnant!! I know everyone already knows this, but I am sooooo excited!!
I need another baby to hold and cuddle, now I get one and the best part...I don't have to be pregnant! This one I can spoil and then give back to Ben and Jada :)

I am so done with all the ice!! Can't it melt already!?!
I am ready for summer! I love summer...the sun, the warmth, the kids playing outside :)

Life is good and I am happy :)

10 Years...

Wow!! Today Gabe and I celebrate our 10 year Anniversary.
It is amazing to look back over the last 10 years and see how much God has done in both our lives. It hasn't always been easy, but it has been worth it
Happy Anniversary Gabe, I can't wait to see what the next 10 years have for us :)
I love you, Always & Forever!!

A Fresh Start

I have started reading the Bible through in 90 days. I have started this several times but always fell behind very quickly. So far I am doing much better this time around.

I am also on day 4 of the 21 day Daniel Fast. Jada and I split up our water only days (3 in a row was too much for me, I was too sick to move on day 2). We are doing 1 day a week of just water. My main craving is CHEESE. I miss cheese more than anything, more than my Mt.Dew, even more than my chocolate chip cookies. My first day back to normal food will be a very cheese filled day!! Overall I am enjoying it though, I know that might sound weird, but it is true. It feels nice to be able to clean the last year out of my life, in a way. I can feel God removing all the negative stuff from me and replacing with His purpose.

Happy New Year

I am so ready for a new year!! A fresh start to life. 2008 had so much heartache for my family, I am not going to look back over all that happend, my eyes and heart are set ahead.
I can't wait to see what God is going to do this year!!