Our Gingerbread House

Update

It has been awhile since I have posted anything...not much to catch up on.

I finally put up my Christmas tree yesterday. It is my little 3ft tree, but hey at least I have one up now. The kids were very happy!
I am going to make a gingerbread house with them this weekend...that should be fun :)

My Jada bought me the Twilight series for Christmas. I have borrowed hers since we started reading them but now I have my very own books!! I can't express how happy this makes me :)
The release date for New Moon has been set for Nov 20, 2009...as long as they keep this up I will get to see Twilight for my birthday 4 years in a row, (they better keep this up!)

That is all the news I can think of at this time.

Twilight

As most people know, I read the Twilight series a couple months ago and have been counting down the days to see the movie.
I went saw the movie last night with Jada, Dixie and my Mommy. I loved it!
Sure it was cheesy sometimes and some scenes had bad acting, but it was still thrilling to see the book come alive :)
I pretty much glowed all evening...sad I know, but still true :)

The books are 1,000,000x better but I love the movie too!!

Hurting

I am trying to be ok...really I am, but if I am being honest with myself, I'm not ok.
I tell myself "he isn't himself right now" but it doesn't make it hurt any less.
I tell myself "he doesn't mean what he says" but it breaks my heart.
I tell myself "he still loves me" but it is getting harder to believe that.
I put on my happy face and try to act like my world isn't falling apart, but really I have never felt so scared and broken.
I try to say and do the right things but I am so tired of being bounced back and forth. How can someone who loves me, hurt me this much??

I said this on that day and I still mean it..."I love you, no matter what you have done, no matter what you are still doing, I will always love you!"
Please remember that I love you and come back to us, I need you!!

Thank You

To everyone who has been there for my family this week.
To my family for not walking away when it gets hard.
To my friends who let me cry on their shoulder.
To my church family for all the prayers and support.

Thank you all so very very much!!